No, nonsense. Who doesn’t like soup? I saw a dog the other day. The tree was yellow. They kissed under the sun a dog walked by them. Cat’s aren’t fail proof. Just because they let you serve them, doesn’t mean they’re going to take any bullshit. The gutters have gasoline rainbows. It was about seven inches, maybe it was shorter in the past and I was taller but we grew by proportion and he remained an Olympic contender. Where do shovels come from? I think women are proportionately attracted to the amount of shit you can make them believe. Chess against a machine. Fuck Deep Fritz. I’ve never had any problem with rabbits. The pie is on the stove. Moscow, I think. Extreme Jenga, real buildings, fifteen packs of kool-aid and an assault rifle, the AR-15. I fucked this one girl when I fifteen. Mom called and I answered the phone, my dick still disagrees, but I told her, I’m talking FIVE DEEP on a 14 year old on a waterbed. I’m in the middle of something. Dropped my pants, you forgot something mesdames. I dream that shit is a vacant womb. Surprise, is this revenge? I have a ballpoint pen. It’s spelled with two R’s. Two, that—that’s it, just two. He hung the phone and no one mourned. 9 inches. I never saw that movie. Yeah, but that doesn’t mean the employment rate is going up. I’ve never eaten a sandwich upside down. Of course I thought about it. Who hasn’t taken a hit or two? Somewhere in Arizona I think. Yeah, they’ve been there for years. Intelligent design sign under the neck of a Siamese twin who shares his brother’s nose. Fuck, they smelled the same shit all the time. He died from falling off a horse. Nah, get back in the car. Fucking bums where you going? A pastrami I think. No. Well, I mean, if you’re going to put a thousand dollars on a dog you better know what kind it is it could be one of those little seizure dogs. Did you eat the fucking rice? Did you? I ate a bunch of rice. Two sentences ago the idea died. How old was he? Hit the fucking mailbox! Knock knock. Who’s there? Fuck you. 2:30 I think. Do you have change for a twenty? No, I heard it makes you see shit. Twists your brains around a crazy finger. The approval of the café manager’s sanitary work environment took home the PGA tour after somebody shot him. The jungle book is racist look at King Louie if that’s not roses tyrants live for nothing. The point is not to make sense. Justified schizophrenia by Sam. Is there any ice cream left? Why not storm Dracula’s castle during the daytime, or bought a flash light. Tom Cruise is 3ft 9” tall. At least his dick is proportionate profession obligatory tom cruise that yuppy fuck who won’t shut up. You know, in the early days of the industrial revolution, the mayonnaise was in great demand. Somebody accepted Jesus into their heart and three days later he burst out like the alien in that Ridley Scott flicker. Dinosaurs had gigantic brains but never a book. Oprah farts all the time. The skinny one dug a hole the fat one couldn’t escape. I’ve never seen that color blue. What do you call it? Coffee, like the name, and spelled like the name, this is promnesia from three days ago. I forgot to type the words. The page was not in the mood. Imagine a guy poking you in the face all fucking night. I lost my contacts. What’s Word’s email address? you would see the rise of the technological coup. The first day on the new computer. For what? I am posed as an alien who loves cheese. Fuck football . I’ve got another rug to use for when Steven comes by. WHAT? Braking news: somebody is on fire. An ice vendor saved his life. I like ice cream. Do you? I never saw that movie. Then fuck you too. I hate that band. Aids should arrive sooner than expected. abort! abort! subject is aware of the experiment.
With all his questions answered,
that massive stone,
he pulled forever,
finally rolled back.
In peace he watched the pebbles slide,
with no Hades on his mind,
nor dancing Persephone.
With his back,
turned to the hill,
he thought of memories alone.
To the abandoned rock he glanced,
and sighed, began to laugh.
With Sisyphus redeemed,
God Zeus, it seemed,
had been impeached at last.
No more purpose,
but to live, enjoy;
After further contemplation,
of the struggle he called home,
he started to lament—
the beauty of the hill, the stone,
grey skies and punishment.
Con niente di lasciato,
he sighed, and on sore legs he rose.
Peace of mind was not enough.
The stone pulled Sisyphus from the dust.
In tuo adventu,
suscipiant te martyres;
the stone on him took hold.
And once again,
so beautifully rolled.
No need for purpose,
just to be;
Sisyphus thought c’est la vie.
The Public Face of Fireflies, 2002
When we kiss each other,
with the formless masks we wear,
they rest on our private face,
to hide who’s really there.
Our lies and malice hide behind,
a smiling face carved out of wood.
A fake smile is placed, where once the face,
of an honest man once stood.
What could we ever even know,
about the complex creature man?
Who’s naked without that made up face,
and would rather wear a lying smile,
behind a phony air of grace,
when his frailty with a mask he can replace.
What could alike be said of the real
behind the mask—
animosity, confusion, and other human traits;
still clouded by a now evaporated past—
with a mask this face we can erase.
We hide the self behind blue curtains,
of civility and taste;
until nothing of the shadow’s past we could remind.
We must appear as shadows,
in a music box seen from space;
before like a song,
we right all wrongs,
smile and then rewind.
To cover up our human nature,
with a mask made out of glass,
for ourselves we make the good,
and for ourselves the bad,
to hide the animal in all of us, alas;
more hollow than the ringing of a silent echo could.
Oh, could our plastic kissing faces,
hide all of us behind—
before last year’s unpleasantness,
our present might remind?
Or could this porcelain mask today’s unease replace,
before we are forever trapped behind a porcelain face?
Could we helpless crawling creatures,
hear aloud the midnight sun—
before we’re washed away like chalk-lined phantoms on the floor?
With the mask undone our life’s no fun,
when ourselves we know no more.
But still we hide our eyes behind,
not the face with which we’re born,
but with a mask we’ve always worn.
The Hands, 2002
The first moment of our life,
dropped as a speck of sand—
from an hourglass over turned by
Drop by drop the pebbles fall forever;
we are grains amidst the strands.
Not always was the dying world so bad;
not always did man speak of have and had.
They place their bets, collect their chips,
They laugh until they see the hands.
No one saw the pebble fall,
and no one wondered why,
the grain of sand,
from unknown hands,
looked at our blue dot passing by.
Earth shrinks in the distance,
as another dot to pass.
From nothing into something,
so runs the hourglass.
It keeps on dripping, drop by drop,
moments forever fall.
They never stop, and never stall;
just smile and watch them fall.
With one stack on another,
so many piles of sand.
They lay together in their dreams,
and far away hold hands.
The Fisherman, 2000
No encore for the sun today,
it disappeared too soon.
But she’ll be back to shine again,
If in the end to dust—
we’re turned to be,
and that eternal silent film,
we’re forced to see,
let Old Man Winter,
in his robe,
lead us into the sea.
Only silence lasts forever,
this in the end we’ll know.
The world will be a silent place,
when our globe runs out of snow,
and has no God to shake it.
Even our golden candle Sol,
no longer will stay lit.
Down the sweet sun comes,
overhead it leaves a golden line.
A streak of light, to sleep she goes,
taking the spotlight off our show.
If we again into the sea descend,
and as a balance between the worlds suspend—
how little time to balance on the line,
before the fisherman rolls us in.
The Tower, 2000
Man runs forever in a gerbil wheel,
chasing cheese that isn’t real.
Piety, or so it seems,
is a self-fulfilling madman’s dream.
Piety, as some would say,
is the Tower of Babble in the way.
Whoever made the wise man made the fool,
and gave them equal pertinence and due.
Whoever made the candlelight,
made the oxen follow too—
another of the sun to lose.
Whoever made the force of love made hate,
with both of them to separate.
The conducting hands of angel choirs,
let Paradise be Lost.
The hands that gave us Mary’s Lamb,
made those who nailed him to the cross.
Whoever made the nighttime made the day,
and lay before us once a golden gate;
a golden gate between here and there,
to which all figures disappear.
Piety, it sometimes seems,
is a forever-recurring delusional dream.
Piety, the wise would say,
is the Tower of Babel still standing today.
Natural Mystic, 1999
A deaf man sings though cannot hear,
like a blind man lost in long blank years.
I see a sick man in the cold,
in the mud and growing old.
An elephant with a lotus, sings,
to Maya lost in twilight dreams:
to you a son will come, fulfill,
and roll stray pebbles up the hill.
Do not indulge, he says, don’t feel.
Serenity and harmony—still,
do not be taunted, selfish heavens,
white doves, four horses, seals, and seven.
Candle sticks flicker in the night,
to and froing as they might.
revealing one seal, two seal, three seals,
all of them opened with a door.
Beyond, inside now, prying still,
as pebbles rolling down a hill.
Like moths burnt by manmade light,
as Icarus burnt at the height of his flight.
Good and evil, one situation—
the rest is just interpretation;
there is no moral litigation,
all good works are inclination.
Evasive will up to the light,
struggling through the dark of night,
like snow dissolving in one’s hand,
like an hourglass without sand!
From some he takes,
to others, give;
to some gives death,
while others live.
Our voice echoes down time’s hall—
transparent paintings line the wall.
In each we see the same man laugh,
a public face behind a mask.
And man is but a pyramid,
each moment but a stone.
Memories in veneer is hid,
and in completion carries on.
Through tall hills of thick green grass,
reflected by a sky of glass.
Orange, flutter butterflies,
admired by some childhood eyes.
Spin you clock, and take me home.
Tick tock tick tock; carry on.
Gone like God and all the rest,
shaken off as though a pest.
Perhaps within this supposition,
with no one listening there, around,
a solipsist dies out in the woods,
does anyone make a sound?
Running nowhere, like running still,
just as ink flows from a quill.
Time is always moving, and,
it drags us like a slave—
to nothingness so soothing,
forgotten in a grave.
With clouds comes the prophet,
will he our dreams fulfill?
And answer riddles, like our life?
Or will he tell us we were right?
Nothing to say, no voice his own,
laid out in rags, silent, alone.
Alone with words, and just his mind,
he watches clocks and cries for time.
Time around him slips away,
as midnight beheads yesterday—
and then itself is conquered too;
that’s all miss destiny seems to do.
The day from darkness, midnight too,
is the light from me to you;
it was arranged for you to see,
if you look long enough for me.
In all my wonder, anonymous,
not dogmatic, or pious;
neither intent on destruction or hate,
intent to let man write his own fate.
We fritter all our lives away,
with little left to do or say.
Without much left to see, to do,
tomorrow comes to take us too.
The dew of dawn, the tears of mourning,
out on the lawn under the storming.
Under the lightning, and the thunder,
creation is a madman’s blunder.
Why waste time to wonder?
An answer doesn’t solve a thing.
Not one bit of peace,
can a simple answer bring.
From here I see tomorrow,
and, behind me, yesterday;
in front of me, ten years,
and it’s not too far away.
There are only people here.
They come to me and say,
“Hello friend,” and, “How are you?”
Then they fade away.
There are only days and nights,
memories and things.
People sitting on their hands,
tight holding to their dreams.
They watch the carousel going by,
blurry faces wondering why—
distorted, twisted, smiling faces,
through rain and pain and snow.
in the garden dreams of paradise,
and hope they get to go.
Living Answers, 1997
All our lives are living answers—
to prior questions asked;
from each springs a golden band,
to present from the past.
From cause to effect,
to here and cause again—
to every question where,
and every question when.
My father in his pickup truck,
called my mom and asked,
“would you like to take a ride?”
He called a quarter past.
Past eleven and she met him,
at the end of a lonely street.
Under a lonely streetlight,
for him her love to greet.
She climbed up in his truck,
and took hold of his hand.
He asked if she was ready.
She said “yes,” and they made me.
Indeed I’m mad, for I have seen,
not with my eyes, but in my dreams—
running alone under the sky,
with heaven above me flying by.
For who alone would scream in pain,
when he alone will scream in vain?
He alone in darkness sings,
denied those heavenly angel wings.
Along we walk in forests cold.
We laugh, we sing, and we grow old.
Until we find ourselves again,
where death and darkness we befriend.
Till peace we find in wayward song,
alone we’ll walk the road so long.
Alone as we walk it—on and on.
Until some day in falling rain,
alone at last without the pain.
Until we rest our worried heads,
warm and at home, alone in bed
In soft brown sand, by the beach,
out of which a hand did reach;
after all the winds of life had blown,
to me who walked the dusty shore,
another from the sea was thrown.
They all will fail, though, like the sun,
forever turning, forever dumb;
forever one plus two plus one.
One plus two perhaps, and three,
divide and add up destiny.
Until it’s simple—
one plus two,
with no more left for man to do.
Like the planets, rising stars,
set along with great God Mars.
They pass by; in time, are lost;
another zero for the cause.
Their voices trail off like a birds,
obscured by sounds which mourn;
the birds come back to sing, to laugh,
to sing and laugh while it still lasts.
The Ballerina, 1995
Up in heaven, when it rained,
the angels cried, and then they sang!
In the corridors of night, hell fire, and,
one after another flutter helpless in the maze.
Foul circles with the turning sun, depart!
Flesh torn from a barren field, the start!
Settling on a shifting Earth,
for some madman’s sad rebirth.
For some sweet child’s new arrival,
for some wise man—a disciple,
for some beggar—pennies saved,
for some philosopher—the maze!
Twirling like a ballerina, on a metal rod so cold,
slipping with the shifting quicksand,
as the clocks turn into mold!
On an axis, flowing—even,
listen to the angels singing!
Metal wrought in fires hot,
until some savior he begot!
Melting with the hands of gold,
would’st thou in heav’n stop the cold?
Would’st thou in heav’n stop the storm?
Would’st thou in heav’n take the form?
Would’st thou in heav’n stop the clocks?
End those wretched ticks and tocks!
Spinning, still consuming, erasing all the numbered hands—
steady running, steady sinking, drowning in the sinking sand!
But in our world it all turns grey:
twilight, in morning, and today.
Like pebbles rolling down a hill,
back up a man will carry, still—
like a lighthouse in the rain,
with destiny the ball and chain!
Like the simple songs of life,
in A minor, C, or D,
we twirl on a little stand, to some sad melody.
Yet there she stays, and dare she spin—
this way, that way, back again!
Until the day her music stops,
when silence locks the music box,
on me and he and her and you,
the sun itself will slumber too.
To rise above some distant peak,
over oceans calm, and deep,
we’ll roll in a sky of glass,
like ants crawling through the grass.
Oh, so much for us unknown,
if only light upon it shone.
If though only we could see,
and hear buzzing like a bee.
So sing with the angels—up above,
and down below;
our dreams are fleeting, as a doves,
looking upon the show.
Tracing through the grass, with mud stains upon our hands,
until to God we yell, until to God demand!
From your indifference, come out now!
Save our world or show us how!
Sit not upon your throne of gold,
alone as even clocks grow old!
Descend upon us, with thy hands!
Save us from these sinking sands!
Save us from these stormy seas!
Alas, you have me on my knees!
In your soft approach, illumination,
down upon us, look you not, for you’re dissolving too!
Struggling through eternity, as
all the numbers fall,
ticking, tocking, wildly flying;
vertigo upon the wall!
Back and forth with us all day,
tonight, tomorrow, and today;
with little thought of men and sin,
tomorrow she will spin again.
The Garden, 1995
In a garden sad, she walks along,
sad as she might be;
with nothing but sad thoughts, alone—
before she ran into me.
I found her at the garden’s shore,
knelt over in the grass.
She said she’d like to walk some more,
and by me she went past.
Between tomatoes, cucumbers too,
which her linen fingers touch—
through flowers bright and gleaming blue,
to me she said this much:
“Beside me sit, for I can’t breathe.”
I knelt beside her, cold;
“Please stay with me; please do not leave.”
My hands around her hold.
“I’m going to die,” she said so sad.
Inside me something changed.
“Look with me to the sky, be glad,”
aloud I said, and plain.
In long nights alone I might recall,
her walking, slipping, falling, and,
waiting alone for someone to call,
just so she might understand.
In the dawn I walk beside her,
dodging insects in the dew;
together again events recur,
and we roll about so blue.
Rolling in that golden sand,
outside in the woods.
Still just trying to understand,
what isn’t understood.
With her small feet walking by,
my finger to her lips;
ourselves together may revive,
we touch our fingertips.
Together still inside the glass,
praying it won’t shatter;
together still the world floats past,
soon the glass won’t even matter.
The Hallway, 1994
Still the silver rain drops fall,
on their journey down from heaven.
While those around stand in the hall,
a silver clock is striking seven.
And time, end all, will make us even,
our eyes and ears to dust;
in each dream and in each seam,
to this end we’re pushed.
Into powder—then like smoke, away,
as tears for those beyond the grave;
melting too like ancient clay—
a fire in the woodshed burns the same.
What’s behind the sword & fire?
Straight from the womb to fall;
burnt phantom figures on life’s pyre;
as we pass through the hall.
Pull up those hands, and down, again,
inside not touched by lightning, thunder,
remake what’s holy, erase our sin,
undo the human blunder!
Yet the world around us rolls, and like,
we’re one bubble in the sea;
to go away when death invites,
we fall like autumn’s leaves.
Could we supersede this,
and get off the wheel at last?
And see a lighthouse in the sky,
before we by it go by?
Life and death, both end, it’s said;
we all walk the hall.
Singing, dancing, eating bread,
hearing the master call.
Mirror, mirror, on the wall—
do you even see at all?
What behind the mirror spies?
Are we looking at our eyes?
What thin shroud has us deluded?
By what God are we occluded?
For some great mystery to solve,
before like sand in glass dissolve?
Like real meshing into naught,
no where and nothing, time forgot.
Here and there a mirrored breeze,
reflecting empty silken seas.
Empty silken seas of sand,
meshing time together, and,
real and nothing pass away;
day by day, it seems to say.
Night by night it seems to shine,
a mystery of the sublime—
beauty in a forest thick,
watching clocks go tick tock tick.
Tick tock tick it talks away,
day after night after day.
Tick by tick into the night,
betraying night to thick sunlight.
Betraying dark, and shadow too,
as the nighttime tends to do.
As newborn light at day will flow,
intriguing us so we may know.
So we might see something so grand,
in every figure, every land;
in each word another says,
still woven by those silken threads.
Silken threads beyond our sight,
beyond daytime, morning light.
Beyond nighttime, twilight too;
what is there left for man to do?
With nothing else for us to see,
no ultimate truth or destiny,
no hate or love or anything,
left to sit alone and sing.
Of our self and songs of old,
in the summer, and in cold.
In a field that shines like glass,
where there we drift into the past.
Mirror, mirror, in the sky,
watching us crawl, and under die;
watching us dance and sing and laugh,
still away fading into past.
As we walk into the now,
into the new, and seeing how.
Back into the darkness peering,
in front of dark shapes, watching, leering.
Into the direction of the new—
with man, alas! Something to do!
Somewhere to go, something to see.
One plus two and two plus thee,
tantamount to destiny.
Tantamount to life itself—
laugh and sing, live, die, or else!
Or else you fritter in the sun,
two minus one minus two plus one!